Riffing on Hesse's master class in succinctness apropos my plight.
"Managing an organisation does not require qualities of stupidity and coarseness, as conceited intellectuals sometimes think. But it does require wholehearted delight in extroverted activity, a bent for identifying oneself with outward goals, and of course also a certain swiftness and lack of scruple about the choice of ways to attain success." I possess neither the skill nor the bent of mind nor the will; In my choice of ways to attain my goals I have learned to be as scrupulous and wary as is humanly possible.
The only acceptable sorrow is the tiny gleam of beauty that appears from time to time to restore momentary faith. Like this untroubled Gulmohar.